Twelve

Dear Jason,
When I reflect back on “what was” I’m reminded of “where” we first began and “where” our story took us.
Chapter by chapter, I look back fondly on our best moments and the ones that didn’t bring out our best.
Still grateful for every unexpected bump in the road, for every mountain that seemed impossible to climb and for every seen and unseen blessing in between because it has brought us here.

Today, I reflect on “what is” and I ask “why?”
In seasons of change, I’m left wondering “why does He take away?”
Then in the stillness of the night, I’m humbly reminded that He ultimately gives.
Life may have taken the wildest left turn.
The leaves may be falling and our days may be looking a little different now.
But in this very moment, I’m shifting my eyes and heart on the things that will never change. For it is His unchanging grace that carries us through the changing colours of the seasons, the wildest winding roads and the wondrous waves of life.

When I reflect on “what will be” I’m reminded of “who” we put our trust in and “who” we love more than anything in this world. Our lives could be uprooted in an instant, what we see and know today are not promised to us tomorrow. But I’m finding comfort in knowing that He’s in full control and is fully with us in every circumstance. Even during these times that are clouded by uncertainty and instability, I hold even tighter onto His promises of hope that hold true yesterday, today and for eternity.

The things that He has prepared for those who love Him cannot be seen, heard or even conceived. So we will find reasons to faithfully press on through the seasons, especially in times when it’s hard to see the light, hear His voice and grasp His inconceivable love.

While this past year has truly brought many questions, much uncertainty and brought our limits to light, I have complete faith that we’ll come out every tunnel, conquer every mountain and ride every wave that comes our way because of who He is.
He always was, always is and always will be with us, for us and guiding our way.

Happy 12 to the one I’m grateful to be quarantining and quarrelling with on this crazy road that is our life. We stand today not by our strength alone and not even close to having it altogether, but closer than ever we stand together. In our case, cuddled up in bed or cozied up on the couch, sticking by one another and sharing this wonderful gift of time with each other.
In our pjs. In our home.

Here’s to pressing on through the unexpected and the unclimbable.
Fixing our eyes, ears and heart on the unseen, the unheard and the unknown.
And to the bumps that transform into blessings along this bumpy road that is beautifully ours.

Here’s to giving thanks for what was, discovering joy in what is, and staying hopeful for what will be.

Here’s to 12.
J